I haven’t posted in the past few days, because I had to take a little mental break. There has been so much drama about me not eating between me and my friends. They seem to think that cornering me in the lunch room and drilling me about food is a good idea. They are just making me feel so much worse. I am losing hope at this point.
Today I almost reverted back to cutting myself because I used to cut to comfort myself. However I made a very special promise to someone I care about and I couldn’t break it. So I am proud of myself for that.
I look in the mirror and I see this figure that is foreign to me. I wish I could explain how much I can’t stand to look at myself any longer. My clothes are starting to sage on my body now. I am glad, because that means I am getting skinnier; however that means I need new clothes quick. I can’t stand when my clothes are baggy. For example my jeans have to be tight or I freak out.
Quick tips! (:
- Try to create a food plan, and STICK TO IT.
- Try to make eating positive. (eat out w friends, cook with friends, etc..)
- engage in healthy activitys and friends
- gentle exercise and REST
- positive self talk
My friend suggested that I talk to my art teacher about what I am going through. I thought that was a good idea except for the fact that I don’t think she would want to listen to me. I really like her as a person, but I know she is a very busy person and I’m much to intimidated to ask to talk to her in private. I am an extremely shy young lady.
Hope for the best, maybe ill find some help from a councilor? I can’t let my parents know about this though, because this is a reoccurring problem. They don’t want to have to deal with all this again. Any suggestions on who I should talk to?
Thing I like about my body today: The way the tendons in my hand look.
